.::Gigs And A Hell Lot Of Words::.

Unleashed and Troopers: Tribute to Iron Maiden



Venue Planet Paradigm
Date 30th April 2005
Time 2pm onwards
Entrance $10

NO AGE LIMIT

Opening Akhirat
Performing Hazy, Osairis, Blood Stone, Deathsynth, Triump1887, Predicate Not Defined, Selamat Pagi Cikgu, Fixxer, Steel Damage


Extreme Music 2



Venue Planet Paradigm
Date 1st May 2005
Time 12pm - 10pm
Entrance $12 (presale), $15 (at door)

Bands Yakamashii, Oddity, Glitched, Full Pledged Munkees, Stillriver, Agung Mountain, Sally's Rejex, B-Quartet, Hypnolist, 5ocial 1ntergration, Cesspit, System Elit


i have to say this:

muhd,
this might be harsh. i'm sorry to say this but i cannot be your friend. even if i wanted to, there's something in my heart that says i have to stay clear of you. please do not bother the band, or even mess with us anymore. we do not want you around. you ask us for forgiveness, we'll forgive you but we will not tolerate anymore of you. no more. we've gone through too much humiliation and backstabbing from you. and we do not want any shit like last time to start again. frankly speaking, we do not want to hear your name within our presence. to me, you'll just be another classmate. questions regarding the class and only about the class is fine. at other times you'll be invisible to me. again. do not bother us. stop messing with us. and we won't accept you into our circle of friends. i rather lose a friend than lose a group. also, don't bother sue anymore too. we've already had too much of you. sorry. if you don't like it, you can join Ramzi dissing and cursing me in the tagboard.

GORE.11:01 PM

.::Help Me Save hide::.

music lovers. especially x-japan fans. i know you're out there. please help Matsumoto Hideto out. tragedy struck in japan. they're closing the hide Museum in Yokosuka. hide's home place. this is the translated message:

At this time, we would like to thank you for your patronage and announce that the hide MUSEUM will close on September 25, 2005.

We have come a long way since May 2, 1998, when hide began his journey to heaven. Those who followed hide began the concept of "ROCK" SPIRITS. So many people had the same feelings, and with their support and cooperation we were able to open the hide MUSEUM as a form of memorial in hide's hometown of Yokosuka on August 20, 2000, the place where the life of a true rock musician began.

For the first three years since its creation, everyone supported us by coming to pay their last respects. Thanks to your kindness, we felt as if we were part of everyone's family. This year, many people came to celebrate the seventh anniversary [of hide's death], and we were able to feel the warm and genial feelings of everyone present.

We deeply thank you for your support thus far. Even though the hide MUSEUM is closing, we beg you to continue cheering in the name of hide's vision: his "ROCK" SPIRITS. In this, he will live forever.

friends. help the hide fans sign the petition. i cried in my heart. you will too.
http://www.petitiononline.com/gt347981/petition.html.
NOW.

sing without you, i'll sing without you
can you feel my heart, falling through the rain
i sing without you, i'll sing without you
can't you hold my tears, 'cause still i love you
i can't face the thought of being alone
i sing for the song still carries on

GORE.10:56 AM

.::She::.

she grabbed on to me,
with her eyes filled with tears,
i looked up to see her face filled with agony,
i thought,
if i should be treated like this,
no one would ever miss me,
but she thought otherwise,
all along she was beside me.

the words whisper in my ears but i ignore it.

depression is forever in my state of mind,
betrayed by the hands that held me,
but she was there,
always for me,
i started to wander into my sorrow,
lost in the entrancing darkness,
she still stood there,
waiting for the night of which i loved so much.

so this is how it's like to be a loner.

i look at the sky everyday for the truth i'm waiting for,
but it will never come and will never reveal,
a rebel without a cause,
i have my own way of doing things,
but she was there holding my hand,
guiding me without a word,
she was there for me,
the power to make me smile out of nothing.

another night passes in my empty life.

back to reality,
as i hang on to the edge of the cliff,
her tears drop to my face,
my last glimpse of her on my last night,
her grasp loosening in my cold sweaty hands,
the words she said that captivated me,
"i love you, don't leave me".

i lose my grip and fall to my doom.

defy the rules in the game of life,
death is the easier way out.

GORE.11:21 PM

.::The Clique::.

i just wanted to point out the clique of IT1A or as i call them. Le Famille Psychodelique. short. LFP.

the Girls.

file name : #LFP-F01
Dina. also known as T-Rex. the one with the plans. considered to be one of the guys. great person. great friend.

file name : #LFP-F02
Nadya. also known as...um...forget that. the sweet one. and the one who's always seen in class one minute. and the other. poof! she's gone.

file name : #LFP-F03
Fadhilah. also known as Samurai. the one with the new digital camera. and fierce one. do not. i repeat. DO NOT ever kick a ball in her direction. erm. forgot to wish her happy birthday. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY.

file name : #LFP-F04
Azura. also known as Britney. fan of britney spears and ms spear's stuff. i'm not a fan so i won't ever know. anyway. a great girl.

file name : #LFP-F05
Mardhiah. short - Mardy. admires mr lee chai thiam and his antics. favourite quote "marah ah nie?". nice girl. always singing never stopping.

file name : #LFP-F06
Serene. the holder of LFP's Obi-Wan Kenobi. logical. and nice and sweet.

the Guys.

file name : #LFP-M01
JJ. also known as Obi-Wan Kenobi. avid fan of star wars. and lame joker. first friend i made in dover and a bisexual. i know. i wasn't expecting that too.

file name : #LFP-M02
Vishnu. also known as Shah Rukh Khan. yes. the Shah Rukh Khan of LFP. a good friend. a good sportsman. one of the first friends i made.

file name : #LFP-M03
Khair. also known as Gala. IT savvy. and right post to the goal of every class match. hah. kidding. one good friend always there. one of the four guitarists of LFP.

file name : #LFP-M04
Nizam. also known as Mat Ganja to me. supplier of ganja. great sportsman. everything to takraw to soccer. lame joker. other names. Kambing.

file name : #LFP-M05
Faris. also known as Tomyam. other names. Ahmak, Buntal. but don't call him that. Tomyam is fine. great person. always with the games and dvds.

file name : #LFP-M06
Shazarul. also known as Atan. fan of metal. drummer. guitarist. good guy. mode of murder - to influence everyone with metal. one of four guitarists of LFP.

file name : #LFP-M07
Zarie. also known as Humlau. great guy. never likes to be in one class for long. punkrocker. one of four guitarists of LFP.

file name : #LFP-M08
Sazali. also known as Brother Lurp. cool dude. rider. always helps me with NWF. thanks. always there for help.

file name : #LFP-M09
Dzulfadli. also known as Abang Body. other names include, Superman. rider. joker. hits back at Mat Ganja three times. and counting.

file name : #LFP-M10
Deen. also known as Mace Windu. another fan of star wars. a useless class representative. everything has to go to the assistant class representative.

end.

p.s.
thanks muhd for helping. but we searched everywhere for Ashley and got her back. true enough she was near the playground. thank allah. but i hate to say her two front paws are limping. dude. all emotions are off. friends.

p.p.s.
MY CATS ARE BACK!

GORE.7:07 PM

.::The People In My World::.

since the last post. i thought about the band more than ever before. band, band, band. everything about the band.

the members of Obscure Phionix.

Sudarman. my bro. eldest in the family of Obscure. he's been a great friend. known him or at least saw him first a year ago. from there fates start to cross. great guitarist. he's the person who will give Obscure Phionix the opportunity in the streets.

Sha. cousin and best friend. we weren't that close before being in the same band. but our relationship greatly rose after that. was closer to my cousins, closer to my father's side family. whom i was without for like 3 years.

Yazid. a great bro. without a feeling he supports us all. great drummer. he's the one who will try to sort Obscure's problems fast and easy. he's the life of the band. and thank allah he was there when we were making the band.

Hafiz. the newest of my bros. the newcomer and the right person to choose to be exact. good bassist. he's learns songs fast. and caught up with us in just weeks. i salute you for that. rock on bro.

it's time for Obscure Phionix to take to the streets.

thanks to some of our friends too. those who believe in us like our good friend Amos.

GORE.7:52 PM

.::Silent Morning::.

today. boring day. nothing interesting happened. seriously. nothing.

Friday, 2005.04.15

jamming was great. we had a great start and we had a great end. completed one song and starting a new one. so there.

sorry. i'm bored. you can fuck off now.

GORE.4:43 PM

.::I'm Not Okay::.

yes. i'm not an okay person. no one's perfect. everyone's got their own problem. it just seems that...i am...enveloped in the darkness. the one's i love around me. but it seems like i just don't respond to them.

to the people i love. always. i'll love you all. you all pick me up when i'm down. you all were beside me during my darkest day. you all showed me what was wrong and what was right. you all kept me together.

before this. i was suicidal. i never cared about anyone or anything. i never gave a damn about the things that were happening around me. i never looked back. i never did anything right.

now i have people to guide me. people to support me. people who will be there always.

i'm grateful for what i received. i'm grateful for all the love. thank you all. love you all always.

you said you read me like a book,
but the pages are all torn and frayed.

came a time tonight,
when every star brought you to tears again,
we are the very hurt you sold,
and what's the worst you take,
from every heart you break,
and like a blade you stain,
well, i've been holding on tonight.

what's the worst that i could say,
things are better if i stay,
so long and goodnight,
so long and goodnight.

well, if you carry on this way,
things are better if i stay,
so long and goodnight,
so long and goodnight...

can you hear me,
are you near me,
please, can we pretend to leave and then,
we'll meet again...

i'm not okay...

GORE.10:47 PM

.::Trust Broken::.

just got back home. sitting infront of the fucking computer. typing away at this fucking blogger. hah. yes. me again. Qhai also known as Hide.

so many things. but first. i went to singapore poly just now to have a look at this convention called "splash" in which tertiary institutes took part in. ite college central, ite college east, ite college west dover. nanyang poly, ngee ann poly, republic poly, temasek poly, singapore poly. nus, ntu. i was impressed by dover's, temasek's, republic's and nanyang's. dover went to do some gaming application on mobile phones. temasek did this cool thing called "sentosa x3", in which tourists can use it. it includes gps tracking and it's point to point! all the features at sentosa, bus guides and all that fucking shit. i was like "wow" at that one. republic did a multitude of mobile games. one looked like "icy tower" and, hah, i thought the person who introduced it was attractive. BUT moving on, since i got better fucking fish to fucking fry. nanyang did yet another fucking mobile game. hah. wireless is getting fucking popular now. shit. the game was named "godcraft" where you can go online and battle some others with the same application.

next up. back to the fucking topic. this fucking happened fucking yesterday. there's this guy. this guy named Asri. an immature one. my cousin, Latiff's friend. or is he still now? i have no idea but i like to fucking know. hah. i'm always part and parcel of my cousins problems. ESPECIALLY MY COUSINS. the story starts with this. Latiff's friends - Zaid, Hilmi, Asraf and Asri went over to use the computer to make some website. see. Latiff found this phone. a nokia 6220. they came the phone was still around. they left the phone was fucking GONE. there you go. guess who did it. yes. Asri. and we know he deliberately stole the phone. FIRST MISTAKE. Latiff called the phone. the call was fucking rejected. SECOND MISTAKE. second time Latiff called. the phone was fucking off. THIRD MISTAKE. he created a folder in the gallery of the phone. FOURTH MISTAKE. he fucking took pictures. dirty ones. FIFTH MISTAKE. saying that he fucking forgot to Latiff's parents. he fucking said forgot to my uncle and aunt. SIXTH MISTAKE. not fucking admitting it. LAST MISTAKE. MESSING WITH MY COUSIN. now. Latiff told me he's still not admitting it. hey, Asri. if your ugly ass is reading my fucking blog. i'd like to tell you this. YOU FUCKING MESS WITH MY COUSINS OR ME AGAIN. I'D FUCKING KILL YOU. YOU BETRAYED OUR TRUST AND YOU'RE GOING TO PAY FOR THAT. ONE MORE THING. I GAVE YOU THE GIFT OF AVENGED SEVENFOLD. YOU FUCKING BLASTED IT OUT TO THE WHOLE WORLD. HEY, BITCH. I DIDN'T TELL YOU TO FUCKING DO THAT. STOP IT OR I WILL BE FORCED TO BEAT YOUR UGLY FAT ASS UP. DON'T MESS WITH ME.

MY FINGER SAYS IT ALL.

i'll stop here before anything else gets ugly.

GORE.7:10 PM

.::Fuck Masses::.

fuck fuck fuck. today's not a fucking good day. and i can only take it out on this fucking blog! shit. i hate it when someone tells me to cut my hair. what the fuck! fuck you section head! no way i'm going to cut my hair! fuck you lee chai thiam! no way i'm going to do what you fucking say! asses. fuck you! fuckers. also Latiff just told me his handphone got stolen. by some fucker. ass. must be someone we fucking know. i can feel it. someone i fucking hate in this one click. an asshole. fucker. damn it. so many people i hate. of which there are some i'd like to get 'em fucking hospitalized or fucking killed. hah. my fucking anger runs deep now...the fucking rage. ggrrrrrr. Mardy also got her fair share of rage at school just now. hah. confronted the fucking bitch she hates. hey. i'd support my friends especially Obscure Phionix, the friends of Obscure Phionix, Le Famille Psychodelique, the 2003/2004 HKSS Batch and some of the current HKSS batches. anything i'd help them in anyway possible. at least there's somethings that cheered me up. like being in the company of Azura and a reply from "her".

a day to remember. hide (Matsumoto Hideto), his death anniversary is coming up. 3rd May. 7 years since he died. 1964-1998. i love you, hide. your fans around the world love you.

P.S. Khair bro. my condolences to your brother-in-law. i just can't say it just now. sorry bro.

end.

GORE.7:09 PM

.::Obscure Phionix: The New Site Awakens::.

the new site for Obscure Phionix is up!

http://obscurephionix.blogspot.com

those who want to be linked at Obscure's site:
- pm me at msn
- mail me
- sms me
- talk to me face to face
- or just simply scream out from the ends of the earth

yes. i mean it.

the fallen revived. Forever Obscure. Obscure Phionix.

GORE.8:49 PM

.::HKSS Speech Day 2005::.

ok...here it is...HKSS' Speech Day 2005...a day where i met ex-hks friends like Ferd, Siti, Hadi, Danny, Hazliza, etc...and current hks friends like Syaliny, Shimah, Wan, Hilmi, blablablablabla...memorable day...hah...right...Rashid had a performance or some sort of a disaster...haha...lots of things went wrong well...i don't care...i'm just hyped...well...nothing else to add...except...i'm gonna crash now...need to fucking rest...

GORE.7:23 PM

.::Another Jamming Session::.

yeah...this time it was great yet again...the band was hyped...we again had guests today...two of them...one Evil Man's friend Fauzi and the other i do not want to mention...he/she should know who he/she is...so...started out shitty cause something wrong with the amp...until halfway we figured out the problem...THE FUCKING GAIN WAS ON! hah...i adjusted everything EXCLUDING the channel buttons...hah...for someone like me to forget that...is...ugh...did great the second half...i was excited cause we having completed one song...a great song..hah...this is it...Forever Obscure...Obscure Phionix

there's another thing i wanted to mention...yesterday...on the way home with Deng...ugh...jurongville sec students went up and they occupied 9/10 of the seats on the top deck...the bus from being cool became fucking HOT...shit...well...just had to add that...well...Deng and i took the last row...taking the ends of the area and putting our things and bags at the middle all the way to jurong point...hah...fucking kids...next time go get a fucking private bus...

END

GORE.10:47 PM

.::Waiting For The Eclipse To Fall::.

as i lie here waiting for the moon to rise
the night of ragnarok taking my life,
heading towards the uncanny mayhem,
i rest my eyes on the blazing flames,
destination set to the afterlife,
where i will see the truth with my eyes,
rage and anger circling my veins,
as i murder the human within,
for so long i awaited this very day,
on which the earth is at the last phase,
the light of which i used to bathe in,
is blinded by the radiance of the eclipse,
crimson is the moon that covers the light,
from where i stand the beauty is a sight,
misunderstood in the confusion of emotions,
this is my last devotion,
i'm hated by the people around me,
though it seems that they care for me,
i'm waiting for the eclipse to fall,
ragnarok hear my call,
i take my last breath under this wonder,
of how i survived the world a second older,
as the beast that doesn't know any better,
of any emotion a human could gather,
gunned down and murdered my heart bleeds,
let the blood drown my very living.

suffice are the words,
that i spoke in the darkness.

GORE.8:25 PM

.::Gunned Down And Murdered::.

I DIED UNDER THE FULL MOON!
THE SCARS OF THE PAST ENGULF ME!
FREE MY SUFFERING!
FREE MY ANGER!
GUNNED DOWN AND MURDERED!

FUCK THE MASSES!
KILL THE INJUSTICE!
BREAK THE MIRROR!


LIKE WALKING ON BROKEN GLASS...
OUR MEMORY FADES IN THE DARKNESS...

FOREVER OBSCURE...

GORE.9:59 PM

.::Na-na-na-na-na::.

haha...don't ask..."na-na-na-na-na"...let's start with jamming...Sha, it's ok that you didn't make it...we don't mind...and we understand...

so...jamming...yeah...played similar songs...perfected them actually...i sang the verses i didn't sing while playing the guitar...which is unbelievably hard...cause i had to concentrate on the beat in some of the songs...huh...it was fucking crap...Evil started to play grind...then Deng gave a rhythm...i trashed...and Apro...huh...gored this..."water fall on the tree, na-na-na-na-na!"...which is unbelievably toppyoushimonai...ok...even after that...the four of us had laughed our asses off...huh...Evil then had to go to Johore to fill his bike oil or something...then there was three...Apro, Deng and i...hah...all the way from yishun to chua chu kang where Apro got off...we were like the noisiest in the train and we were laughing all the way...non-stop...i was almost rolling on the floor laughing...

ok...i'm fucking tired...til next time...

GORE.11:52 AM