SSF'S COMING; BLINDFOLDED.

Okay. First let me update on OPX's last jamming session. It waaaaaas extremely great! We got our form back. Haha. Finally. Our Original had an upgrade. Oh, plus my Jackson Dinky had a tune-up. This Obscure Phionix will soon be at Plaza Singapura playing to scrace the crowd. Hoping the people i invited are able to come on any of the three dates.

Oh just in case anyone of you don't believe me when i say i have my Jackson guitar.




Hahahahahaha. JACKSON BEBEH! Floyd Rose tremolo bar!

I'm awfully excited plus stressed for the performance at Plaza Singapura. It's going to be a blast. Currently stuck to Protest The Hero's songs. Wahah. The guitar works, the bass tappings, the odd drumbeats. A must to cover.

Oh. Here's one of the songs i wrote at Tekong...of all places.

BLINDFOLDED ADDICTION.
Do you notice me
The one who cares for you
My addiction for you neverending
I'm hoping for the day you fall for me
Disorder of dreams
Let my shattered heart mend in you hands
Let my lifeless soul breathe again
Let me be your knight stained in black
Let us be forever, forever
I want you to be mine
Cause you are the only one who understands my melody of words
I can't be sure if we're intended
Loveless human
Blindfolded, my sins push away the emotion
Sins of a lifetime
As darkness consume my future, a blasphemy of relations
You took away the cloth that impairs my eyes
Opened my vision of love for you
The light shines on you, my angel
You freed me and I thank you
I just want to hold and look at you
If I fail, blindfold my eyes again
Burn my skin with a lighted cigarette
Put me against a wall
Line a squad of shooters in front of me
And pull the trigger
Life's too short to let you go

And of course this song is for my own personal gain. Not for Obscure Phionix or Death By Clowns. I just love writing.

And again. This image:



insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.12:51 PM

SSF07; SINGAPORE STREET FESTIVAL 2007.

Only one thing to update now. SSF07.



I'll update my on my life sooner or later. Hahs.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.6:19 PM

DO YOU REMEMBER; THE GOOD OLD DAYS.

I've been spending my time in camp writing songs of lonliness. No idea why but that's what comes to my mind everytime i open up that book of lyrics. So...

Obscure Phionix had jamming yesterday. It was a little fucked. But nevertheless we'll perservere until StreetFest07. Original is completed. Want to hear it? Come to StreetFest. Haha. =). I'm hoping people like Ruz, Niq and a few other can make it. Lol. I'm gonna ask Mama if Ruz could be her goddaughter. Cos Ruz loves my Mama. Hehe. Maybe after Mama gets to know her better.

Oh yeah. This song is great. The lyrics are so powerful maybe it could turn the world's thinking. Tells us the way not to treat the world's women. And not the way women should treat themselves. Still, the world is becoming darker.



Do you remember how it was when you bled?
When you loved and burned in those flames that you've kept
Because Vesta's long been sleeping
And now you've come to accept that
Your anatomy defines more than a few of the gaping holes in our social fabric
More than a few one night stands, more than a few prison bars melted into wedding bands
We've made you all the peasants and we've made ourselves the kings
Our queens are still subordinate as an angel without wings
We make it easy to belong which means it's easy to be wrong
"Put some plastic in your tits, and you'd look better as a blonde"
I remember when you were hopeful
And you never thought your life would be lived inside a coffin
With a moral sacrifice and a million social obligations, labels and expectations
You were young and modern seventeen in vogue and vague pursuit of a cosmopolitan dream
When you bled on the bed as you fed those expectations as a whore and not a human
You embraced with hesitation the parameters of all you can be
Not a mother, not an aunt, not a sister who's not subdued
Because dignity's not physical and your flesh means more than you
Your flesh means more than you; your flesh means more than you
Your flesh means more than you; your flesh means more than you
I know we'll wake up one day with a gun to the back of our brains
You'll be asking for your rib and I'll smile and call you brave
Maybe someday when this bloody skull has dried I'll know our city is in ruins
When our greatest source of pride is a monument of dicks and ribs and gender crowns we wore
Where underneath, a plaque will read, "No woman is a whore"

No. Not the way. Spread the word. We should love ourselves and be at pride.

"My hopes and my own future blindfolded to atone for a sin I didn't care for, but a sin that paid my debts. No one ever said that hope would be so beautiful. No one ever said I had to pull that trigger, on her. Her tiny steps tell lies about the choice I have to make; resurrect a static lifetime to starve, to death my own mistakes. So pull the screaming trigger and watch your carcass bleed me dry. Or drop the gun and try to shake away the blindfold from your eyes" - for my fading past.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.9:08 AM

3 WEEKS; PERFORMANCE.

Obscure Phionix has 3 weeks left to Singapore Street Festival 2007. Last time we performed for that was in 2005. The very first Obscure Phionix line up: Meow, Man, Yazid, Hafiz and myself - Obscure Phionix 2005. We played Avenged Sevenfold's songs then. Look at us now, more agressive and faster pacing. I love how Obscure Phionix evolved through the years. Hopefully i'll get the Jackson Dinky by then. =).

Had jamming yesterday. In the evening until 9pm. Hafiz came down as well. We almost got Statutory Ape right and almost got our original right. Woohoo! Will be performing those two songs by StreetFest. Plus more. Old favourites and crowd favourites. For our genre i mean. Haha. I love how our original sounds.

As we were going back. I did something i promised myself not to do. Scan through the faces of girls. That's something wrong. I have myself to blame. Forever shall i be burdened by this lonliness. But at least Ruz is there to keep me company most of the time. =). Thanks Ruz darling. <3.

Let me end here. I might be able to get that Jackson today. Waiting for Yadi's call.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.8:37 AM

THE SHOTS; THE INSANITY.

here they are. the photos of yesterday.





















insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.4:48 PM

BEFORE I END; BEFORE ENCAMPMENT.

This week has been overly fun. Went out most of the days. Met all the people i'm supposed to and wanted to. I'm relieved. Their faces make me smile. Always, never less. And as always, i'll love them until i die. But it's not always smooth sailing. I didn't get to meet a few of my beasties. And the new faces. Well. Here's my week's schedule since booking out.

Saturday, 2007.04.28.
Relaxed at home. Then went out alone to City Hall to buy some string for my beloved wife, B.C. Rich Beast. Went to Ayah's to get Eriq. Went home.

Sunday, 2007.04.29.
Went out. Jamming at Beats Merchant with Obscure Phionix. The room we got was so fucked up that i came back frustrated. So much for a great session.

Monday, 2007.04.30.
To ITE College Dover. Had jamming with Death By Clowns. Although it was only Latiff, Khair and i. Still when we jammed our last song, Rose Of Sharyn, i guess we drew alot of people's attention. Oh yeah, talking about DBC. I miss them. Especially Shima and Faizal.

Tuesday, 2007.05.01.
Went out to VivoCity with family. Walked and walked. Then we took the train to Sentosa. To Beach Station. Saw the drastic changes to Sentosa. I miss the old Sentosa.

Wednesday, 2007.05.02.
Stayed at home. Uploaded videos of Obscure Phionix's past gigs.

Thursday, 2007.05.03.
Went out in the evening to Man's place. Practiced our original song. And fondled his PlayStation 3. Oh my god.

Friday, 2007.05.04.
Jamming with Obscure Phionix. Tried to play Statutory Ape. Ended in vain. Haha. Still, went back frustrated cause of a few minor problems.

Saturday, 2007.05.05.
Went out for the Singapore Street Festival meeting with Meow and Qader. Yes, Obscure Phionix is playing there again. Woo. After that, waited for Shah and Rynna. Then Hafiz. Coolness. Then we went to Millenia Walk cause Shah wanted his dinner. Then along the way to City Hall Supreme Court, i bumped into Zana and the Dover guys. Haha. As we moved forward, bumped into Joe of Shadows Embrace. Already went for NS eh. Hah. Then when we were at Supreme Court. We camwhored. Yeah. The crazy people of OPX are as insane as ever. Waited for Man while we're there. After which more camwhoring. Then Fiz, Man and i did some amateur parkour. Haha.

So. I'll stop here. I'll post the photos later alright.

I'm the tool of my demons.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.9:57 AM

200; FORSAKEN.

This is my 200th post. I guess i'm just posting this due to my heart's similarity to the lyrics of this song. Oh, fuck. There are so many songs that could describe my crumbling heart. But i'll always love my beasties. =). So this is for you, my fading past.



A glance back, a glance into the now
Tears sweeten the day
But the aftertaste is bitter
Here we go!
Where are the good old times?
Where is my dependence?
In your presence my memories
Swallow me
Moment for moment
You threw me back
A new way, the same paths, old fears
I'm the tool of my demons
In your presence my memories
They swallow me
Moment for moment
You threw me back here
A new way, the same paths, old fears
I'm the tool of my demons
They hide the depths of my soul, in darkness
I can't be what I am
Fill me with new hope
Let me go before I end
I can't be what I am
Fill me with new hope
Fill me with new hope
In your presence my memories
They swallow me
Moment for moment
You threw me back here
A new way, the same paths, old fears
I'm the tool of my demons
They hide the depths of my soul, in darkness
Fill me with new hope
Fill me with new hope

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.7:37 PM

VIDEO-ED; OBSCURE PHIONIX.

Finally. Since i have the time, i've uploaded all videos of Metalgodz Part 4 and Ascension 2: The Second Round. That was more than 6 months ago. A long, long time. I guess since landing in Tekong, i've less time for everything. That's the truth. Oh well, i guess i'll have to get used to it cause i still have another one and a half years to go. But, nevertheless, i'll still hate NS. And Ruz agrees with me. Haha.

Once again the psycho strikes. Can someone please shut her up and bleed her to death? I'm getting more and more annoyed and bezerked. Ruz, can i take your offer for you to screw her?

Hah. Let's end. Take care insanes.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.4:38 PM