IMMORTALIS
ZOMBEAST
DEATHDIVINE
I'm just a cigarette, so please smoke me. This twisted, wretched place shadowed by the utmost darks of Hell. In dreams of black beyond the bounds of a withered witch's spell. Unholy inversion of hope twisting the faith of the meek into hate, driven insane by the dark one. To bring forth the foul biddings, he speaks. The undead are among us, at dawn they shrink back to their silken beds. They dance by night and drink the blood of a child's broken neck.His spires are growing taller still, their shadows spreading throughout the land, freeing the evils that sleep within the weaker minds of man. Into the tower, never go. The horrors multiply. Gears can mince the strongest ones, leaving heroes paralyzed. The rivers flow with poison, the sands swallow you whole, the ghouls that roam this darkened wood are thirsting for your throat. Tonight will be our last, my hands are itching for razors, my angel, this knife shall carve thee wings. Consumed by sickness, I ache to see your blood. The hour approaches when I shall lay a nest inside of you. Sliced open, I lay waste to my desires. Sweet entrails are scooped onto the tile. And in my dreams, I hold your head beneath the waves. After you've died, I kiss the nape of your porcelain neck. You enter me in death's perpetual embrace, skin tightens in the throes of lust. And in my dreams, I cut your mouth from ear to ear. Dissecting your angelic body in the quiet of your room. How splendidly I carve into your tender heart, shuddering between the sheets. Whisper your name as you awaken your throat gasps, your skin recoils. We shall be intertwined, entangled in our love. Murder beckons as time stops with your voice, "I'll love you forever" - and forever it shall be. The knives begin singing, they're weeping for your flesh. The pinnacle of obsession is clawing at the fibers of my mind. The rampant state of elation is heightened by the paleness of your cries. With a promise of absolution, my thoughts are tangled in my creations. With a promise of unequaled pleasure, reason is twisting the knives are crooning for this perfect end. For weeks I've watched you, perched above your sleeping form. As I caress your perfection, my angel, I'll tear your insides out. My mind is flooding, the marrow of your bones. I cannot subside until I have suckled every inch of you. I feel the fibers stretch and tear. Unbridled climax is achieved. I've waited so long for this moment, the euphoric act of suicide! Suicide! She starts her new diet of liquor and dick, Just like Hollywood, but laced in sick. The sun goes down, and so does she. So clap your hands to the sound of every first born dying now. Watch the rivers flow with blood, death will stand where life once stood. Close your eyes, pray for plagues. Cleanse this Earth, bring our doomsday! Clap your hands to the sound of every first born dying now. Watch the rivers flow with blood, death will stand where life once stood. If I had a gun I'd pump your ethics full of lead. If I believed in meat I'd eat a plateful of our dead. There's merit in construction when it's done with your own hands. There's beauty in destruction, resurrection, another chance. There's a you and I in union but just an I in my beliefs. There's a crashing plane with a banner that reads everyone's naive. I'd rather kill a stupid flower and spread its seeds around. Until a garden with our bullet-laden morals will be found. Will be found. Now I´m standing here alone at the end of the road, screaming into the emptiness. Why did we start this way together.? Although it was clear to me I would end up all alone, completely broken and misused by love? I rape myself and I don´t know why, this whole thing makes no sense at all! Have you ever understood me, have you ever felt the same, have you ever looked in my eyes? Rip them off, take them. Burn to coals as they crush and leave nothing that resembles a soul of a man. See him numb, see him crushed. I could not see past fury. Maintained the True Beast. My instincts rupture and the motive has no theme. Now look into these eyes, and see the end of time. It takes hold this image of rapture, infecting you whole... Tie me to a knob, and close the hanger's door. A human taken advantage for the world's better peace. He revives as a Beast, in dark fires of Hell. Now wait for the sounds of death, come ringing to your ears. The blasts, melodic. The gore, beautiful. Your end is yet to come. I'm still a cigarette, so just smoke me.
Sunday, January 14, 2007

8 MORE HOURS TIL BOOK IN; THE IRONY.

Damn. I didn't know booking out and in would be a fucking bore. But still, if i did not book out, i'll miss everyone. But still, when it's time to book in, i feel that i'd rather stay in Tekong and not book out at all. Oh well. That's that.

I'm tired. Dead tired.

I miss starting to miss alot of people more than the usual level. freakinlyMINE, Obscure Phionix, scenemates, Ruz, Ifah, Ika, Iqah, etc. Am i feeling ok? I guess not. NS, as Ruz said, is a life destroyer. Because of NS, i don't have as much time for freakinlyMINE as i used to have. Because of NS, Ruz has no one to confide to unless i booked out. Because of NS, i have less time for my family. Because of NS, i have less time for my bands. The irony.

I still wonder. Why some people are jealous of my mom? Is it cause she's pretty? Is it cause she has all the luck in the world? Or is it just cause she's determined to succeed in everything she set out to do? Oh well, i'll never understand. But i tell you what, i'm proud of her. Just because she's my mom. People might start asking if she's re-married. To find out, ask the people - Mama, Uncle Jazz, Umi, my siblings or myself. Thread on other people's life and they'll thread on yours. Watch out or we'll roll all over you.

Once again. Let me end here. Cause once again. I have no idea what to write about anymore. And once again. Thank you for reading. And for you who're out of your mind. Stay insane for my sake...and freakinlyMINE's sake, cause she's insane too. Wait, so's Ruz. Okay, am i insane to state this? Is lunacy the same as insanity? Haha. Hahahahaha. Watch this insane beast crap. Haha.

Ok, stop.

insanely yours plus love,
Qhai.

GORE.10:16 AM

Friday, January 12, 2007

ANOTHER BOOK OUT; TIRED BADASS.

Eagle Company Platoon 4 Section 1. That's my company, my platoon and my section. Today only 8 out of 12 of us in the section was lucky enough to book out today. The other four (Su, Fir, Sath and Henry) will only book out tomorrow at 1000hrs. Why? RT. Remedial Training. What is that? Sit in the bunk the whole day and look at each others faces. Haha. Oh well. Oh, here are the names of my section starting from Bed 1 to Bed 12 - Henry, Kaden, Yan, Sath, Oji, Black, Fir, Andrew, Su, Myself, Olie and Tam.

Ok, so BMT is tough. Getting more tiresome through the days. But enough to cope. Training to be soldiers. "Do not give up," so says Ruz. No, i won't give up. Why? I do not want to be OOT. Out Of Training. In which i will have to retake my 6 months of training with the next batch. NO WAY. Will never happen.

My section used to sleep together in the center of the bunk everynight. With the addition of Arep from Section 3. But now we sleep buddy to buddy. Haha. Most of the malay dudes in our platoon click with each other except for some outcasts. I think. Well. Some people hate some people. But what can we do? We're going to be stuck by each other's side for 6 months. Bear with it. Pass out. And leave for the Units.

Oh, Falcon Company just enlisted today. PES A & B Enhanced Batch. 9 weeks of BMT. What The Mother F***!

Shif says i'm getting hotter. I know i'm getting darker. Darker, yes. Hotter, not a chance. Hehe.

Eh. Those who hold my number. SMS me during my time at camp. Puh-lease. With sugars on top, caramel and icing.

Okay, i'll stop here for today.

freakinlyMINE - I love you. Happy 15th Month. =).

insanely yours + love,
Qhai.

GORE.9:44 PM

Monday, January 01, 2007

WHAT'S LEFT; CHANGED IN NS.


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Yep, that's me alright. Full-time National Serviceman. Who cares eh? Training's tough. But the lot of us can take it. Met new people. And old ones. Can't say much. Cause i'm freaking tired.

A message to all:
Since i started NS, things haven't been the same. But remember this - i will always be the guidance, the friendship and the chain that keeps everyone together. I'm still here. I'm still smiling. And i still love.

insanely yours,
love,
Qhai.

GORE.11:36 PM

.INTRODUCTION.

QHAI 1987.06.15.
The Air, The Twins, Gemini.
(UN)Taken Cynic.
GUITARIST of Obscure Phionix.
VOCALIST of Death By Clowns.
I am insane; Come near me and you will get my disease. I am an insane guitarist, a psychotic vocalist and yes, I headbang. I've received much company and love from Obscure Phionix, Death By Clowns, scenemates/fans and trusted friends. Thus I am content with my life. With no further questions, I have laid down my feet to my one path. Even how complicated things will get, I will get there. I am my own King. And I will decide where I go. Hate me if you will, there is an [x] where you can close this down. Gore back at me.

Reach me though;
Qhai @ Friendster.
Qhai @ MySpace.
Qhai @ avengedchildxvii@hotmail.com.

Reach Obscure Phionix through;
Obscure Phionix @ Blogger.
Obscure Phionix @ Friendster.
Obscure Phionix @ MySpace.
Obscure Phionix @ obscurephionix@hotmail.com.

I play melodic-progressive-trash-death-core metal.
Got a problem? Go Fuck Yourself.

.GORE IT OUT.



.EAR POISON.

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