*Black Light

5 days to FUXION - http://obscurephionix.blogspot.com
get you tickets now!

believe me. it's a whole day gone wrong. last minute changes to the Esplanade trip. well, at least Sis was there to share cash with me and accompany me for a while. so...i'm fucked bored right now. bleah.

followed Sis to her jamming session yesterday. it was ok. abit of mistakes here and there. no band's perfect right? and they're going to jam for 3hrs on monday. good luck. the time constraint i mean.

life stories:

i need to save a fucking whopping $155 for EMG pickup. an EMG 81. that's what Aproman told me. i guess. oh, well. i'll ask again when i have the cash.

i'm back to my heavy metal self. thank the god of metal for bringing me back to the light.

i'm planning my brutal murder of mats and minah rips. so far so good.

i changed my mind. i want that Ibanez with the pearl gothic cross inlays. a fucked $1250.

i have no need for love. i'm better without it. or is that just the emo talking?

HEAVY METAL!

i wish i was somewhere else. this is getting boring. fast.

i wanted to go.

The fear of romance,
The pain of living,
The joy of sorrow,
The strength of unforgiving,
God help me, I'm so tired,
But in my dreams the wolves eat out my soul,
God help me, I'm so frightened,
But in my dreams the wolves tear out my heart,
I used to be golden,
A saint in a time of sorrow,
But then the turning came,
And I kissed the Sun goodbye,
Don't you get it?
It's always darker in my eyes,
The screams of my brothers egging me on...

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream,
All the stars right out the sky,
And destroy the prettiest starry night,
Every evening that I die,
I am exhumed just a little less human,
And a lot more bitter and cold...

Live, Love, Burn, Die...

GORE.7:51 PM

*Message To Bonsai

6 days to FUXION - http://obscurephionix.blogspot.com
get your tickets now!

a message to Bonsai:

this coming saturday, we are planning to go to Esplanade to relax and gather. so those who want to come please send me a confirmation that you're going. Nokz, if you're going please bring along your acoustic guitar as i'll be bringing mine. members of Bonsai please pass around this message. thank you.

ok, bye. will see you all tomorrow.

i hope i'll see you tomorrow.

GORE.5:29 PM

*Raven Shield

8 days to Fuxion Gig - http://obscurephionix.blogspot.com

first off. i can't wait for Fuxion. excited. haha. i can't wait...i don't even care if it's a Thursday night. i've got Friday off. so what?

played Rainbow Six at school just now. haha. fun. extremely fun. LAN with the fellas. should install the game to the whole lab. then everyone can join in. i bet it'll lag if that ever happens.

operations in my life:

no one chats with me in msn messenger. damn bored man. at least have a simple conversation with me. darn it.

mats and minahs are still fucking around. i'm forming a group of renegades to stop them from taking over singapore. who's up for it?

i want to go to the esplanade. anytime. the atmosphere there (even though mostly couples are there) makes me feel at peace with myself. but please. i'd rather go with somebody...

feeling so emo lately. why? have no fucking idea. wake up Hide, you're a heavy metal damn it!

i want you to know. i care.

GORE.6:57 PM

*Emotions Buried And Fuxion

GORE.12:06 PM

*Esplanade Again

yeah. so what? i went to watch the fireworks there. me, Deng and Aproman. hah. it was a crazy time. took pictures, became clowns and got stomach cramps by insane laughter. anyone got a problem with that?

met a few people there. like...Jen and her girls and Shahmi and his pals. but i have a feeling that the boys of OPX is the craziest among all. another boys night out. another crazy night. and just guess how tired you'd be if at 1 you've got jamming. and the rest of the day, you were hyper with insanity.

that's how tired i was.

oh yeah, had to become host to the Klaz of 78 YISS commitee on Friday. Iqah and Jen were there. so...i'd say it was fun.

counting down to Fuxion - 13 days. good luck to all bands. haha.

eh. if you're someone i know and you have not linked me at your blog or whatever. do it!

i hate noisy people. haha. like some at the rooftop terrace. this excludes the ones i know. (and some i know)

going to watch Fantastic Four at GV Jurong Point at 12.20am. so...until here. sayonara.

i have a hard time trying to tell you.

GORE.10:56 PM

*Extreme Boredom

short day at school today. 9 to 10.30 only. again...i'm stuck at Maple Story as a level 21 Swordsman. i sure wish i could level up faster to 25 so i can use that bamboo hat. hah. it seems that time is moving extra slow. yeah. extra slow. now here i am putting an entry into my blog. hah. so. in my life:

trying to make original. so far no good. i'm confused which riffs i want to use.

still aiming for that Schecter guitar and also that Ibanez guitar.

in need of a gadget. fast.

mats and minahs still alive. kill...kill...kill...

i have a feeling of emptiness inside of me. in this case, love. bleah.

my room has become a mural. without the paints.

i'm bored. yeh.

i'm extremely bored.

can anyone go out with me now and then?

i mean it.

how can i say that i love you?

GORE.6:04 PM

*16th July Baybeats!

well. i don't know what to say. this is the first time i went to Baybeats so i can't really judge it. the place which i only was interested at is the Arena. first band i saw was Set For Glory. powerful band. makes me think of OPX actually. second was Plush, an all girl band. i didn't go into the barriers just hung out outside. they sounded like a gothic band with the keyboard melodies. next i saw was Love Me Butch. awesome and powerful band. the vocalist can scream good. i wish OPX would be up there one day. hoping and dreaming that day will come.

i searched for you up and down today, but you're nowhere to be found.

GORE.11:39 PM

*Ghost Of You

nowadays. feeling a little emo. don't get me wrong...i have no problems. sometimes...i just stare out to the open and think. actually i think too much. this is fucking emo side of me is affecting me hard man. i'm not feeling alright. i'll never feel alright with this "knife" in my back. sorry to my buds, especially Obscure Phionix, for affecting you in any way. i'm gonna have to take this out of me soon. ah fuck.

cca fair today was ok. actually i can say that this is the first time i'm talking to most of the LiveBand members. a whole page of names filled. this includes some 2nd years. it was cool. but during OPX's short performance, i'd say it have to suck. we're out of syncronisation. brothers and sister of OPX - don't worry. be strong. we'll make it through together. as a band and as family. i love you guys.

now the song Ghost Of You by My Chemical Romance is stuck in my head. yeah. another emo song. doesn't matter. i'm gonna stuff my mind with my passion.

thoughts of you.

GORE.7:17 PM

*Redo Of The Fireworks Entry

gomendasai. i was fucking tired yesterday and i had to do a quick post. so. nanda? the fireworks? damn great. as i said, went out for jamming with Obscure Phionix at 12nn. jamming was great as usual. we jammed our serious fun asses off. then we went to Peninsula's BK to meet Sue and Zana cause Zana wanted to interview us. haha. their assignment due is on Monday. talked for like half an hour? or less. i guess. well, after that we went to the Esplanade. hang out for awhile. on the way there bumped into Matnur and his girl (sorry i forgot your name again). and bumped into Iqah, Jen and Isk. what a coincidence. haha. after Obscure went off, i hung out with Jen and Company. it was fun. more new faces. we scaled the Esplanade to the rooftop. where more of Jen's friends are there. lol. met Shahmi there. as we're waiting for Isk's friends, Jen's friend Ikin joined in the merry making. blablabla...then we met Isk's friends. coincidentally (again), i saw Danny's ex. chikusho. talk about a day with coincidences. all in all. i enjoyed myself.

well, life? better. more fun than it used to be.

mats and minahs? i still fucking hate them.

oh, Maple Story is lagging like fuck!

i'm never ok.

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I, should I
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me...

GORE.1:12 PM

*Fireworks At Esplanade

guess what. at 10.30am i went out to go jamming at 12pm at Yishun. then...went out to meet twin sis Sue and Zana for interview purposes...after that went to the Esplanade. and met up with Iqah, Jen, Isk and their friends. to the rooftop we go and watch fireworks. lol. well...TIRED. OK, BYE.

GORE.11:24 PM

*Let's All Buy Some Furniture!

hai. the usual people went out for furniture hunting today. naze? because we had to get designs for our CANI project. chikusho...it made me feel like i was going to get registered. if you get what i'm saying. went to the whole line of warehouses at Bukit Timah. excluding Da Vinci. we only took an hour and a half to get through all that...i think...feels much lesser than that. anyway, after that we went for "pooling" as Nokz says. hai. go play pool. i lost all my pool skills. long time since i played. that took us two hours plus. then the rest went out to Lot 1...

to my twin sis: i'm sorry i can't make it.

to Obscure Phionix: let's ignite the inferno of the phoenix which was once in our hearts to full form. we will get through our difficulties.

whoever you are, you can make me smile.

GORE.7:29 PM

*Last Train Home

guess what...Last Train Home jammed for 7 hours today! fucking crazy right? chikusho...who was there...hmm...Nokz, Mard, Aishah, Aproman, Meow, Bazli, Djas, Atan and Faizal...hahaha...

jammed like hell...completed I'm Not Ok and Helena...yeah i know...common song...so what?

ok...i need to rest now...my whole body is fucking aching...

i see you in my future, whoever you are.

GORE.9:14 PM

*YISS Family Day

well...it's alright. hai. class 1978 YISS students. i stress on 1978. okasan's old school buddies. it's the first YISS gathering i went to. so i guess it's quite alright. met new friends. Aniqah, Jennywawa and Shahmi.

next, Obscure Phionix made it to the news. hahaha. Sunday Time's Life. the part on the School Of Rock. fuck people. i fucking hate the amps they let us use! fucking China made, built-in distortion LINE 6 AMPS. fuck, fuck, fuck. baka yarou!

school suck! hahaha. no, it doesn't. it's great.

NOTE TO LAST TRAIN HOME: tomorrow, tuesday, 5th July, jamming held at school from 1pm to 8pm. BE THERE!

NOTE TO OBSCURE PHIONIX: jamming will be held at the usual place at 12pm to 2pm on SATURDAY.

fucking shit. i've been wasting my time on Priston Tale and Maple Story. what the fuck! i don't regret it.

friends. bear with me. i'm in the process of changing Darker Heaven's and Obscure Phionix's blogskin.

GORE.9:18 AM