Tuesday, December 06, 2005
*2005.12.06, Tuesday
tuesday. december sixth. here i am blogging away. to those
frequent readers, i'm sorry that i do not blog at much as before. now let's see, what is going on?
tomorrow is the seventh,
Obscure Phionix will be
performing at
The Substation. i'm nervous. seriously, i'm shaking inside. we're prepared (i guess) since we
jammed like hell yesterday. it was like we're
possessed. hah. at the end of the day, we all were
dead tired. i need to get some batteries for tomorrow,
ten AA batteries. six for my effect board and four for my camera. i don't want both things to just stop working just like that. hah. pathetic it is as only two out of seven tickets sold.
OPX planned to have a "photoshoot" tomorrow before the gig. it's
about time we took band pictures together. haha.
i'm
thinking twice of this "friendship" thing. hah. i'm
dead tired of betrayals,
shit and
the words "
no", "
i'
m sorry" and "
sorry i can'
t make it". and you ask why i didn't go for this and why i didn't go for that. fuck ass. i
hate those kind of people. it's been
so many times i planned to fucking go out with them and they either fucking postpone it or never fucking go. who the hell won't be fuck pissed? i'd rather hang out with my
outside friends. while the others, i'll just
swallow everything you throw at me,
don'
t mind if i throw up blood in front of you in the process.
i live my life how i want to live it, no one can stop me.
i'm just happy having people like
Freakinly Mine,
Obscure Phionix,
Faizal,
Zarie and the rest of the people i call outside friends. i love you all.
a few words to end this post -
i love you Freakinly Mine.
insanely yours,
Qhaiswallow every blasphemy.I want you to know that,I miss you, I miss you so,I want you to know that,I miss you, I miss you so...You starve your children on neglect,And feed their bellies with fear,Concussion bat to the brain,Witness to a battered mother,Your abuse will end right here,No longer will your family fear,A gunshot to the head of trepidation,My promise if you ever lay a finger...
GORE.1:45 PM