BACK FROM HELL WEEKS; COMBATANT.

Ok. I passed my tests. Hell week is over! Hell week is over! Congrats to me for being lucky to pass all my tests. Plus the encouragement from Beastie Ruz and Wani made me study harder. Oh, i got poked by two 16Gs (just a little smaller than a yakult straw). FUCKING PAIN LAH SEH.

Anyways, yesterday's fireworks were damn beautiful. Glad i didn't miss it. Hung out with EJ, Zul, Alif, Hafiz, Ihsan and new friend from Boon Lay, Adriana. Ok, so i maybe the oldest there and the only OPXian and not mix with them for a long time, but it's time to mingle. Again.

Ruz had a hate tagger problem. Helped her out. Frankly speaking, i'd take an M16 shot for her. She's the only friend who really cares like a bestie should. Hate taggers suck. So fuck off from my friends.

I'm out of my depression phase. Haha. I've no regrets of my past. I'm fucking happy with my fucking life now. Ok, so except the fact that i still have stupid NS to serve. Waste of fucking time. But still, the things NS force in your brain is great for self-discipline and future skills. MEDIC LAH SEH. MEDDDDIIIC!

So a song tribute for my change of perspective.

CALIBAN - LET GO
Dead end and no way back
Walls came crashing down on me
Whatever I try, whatever I do
My mind will go insane
Change is the headline and I am reborn
All the crying, all the mourning is gone
I woke up with a new view of life
I don't know what has happened to the past (life)
Life is too short to think all through
Life is too short to waste it all
So listen to your heart
And help your dreams, to come true
Life is too short
Too many dreams kept in the dark
Too many wishes are blown away for nothing
A new time, a new chance
I am a rising star
I am back
I will fight
I will love again
I woke up with a new view of life
I don't know what has happened to the past (life)
Life is too short to think all through
Life is too short to waste it all
Life is too short

Yes. Reborn i maybe but none of the past or my loved will be forgotten.

Now, another song to try to empty the void.

CALIBAN - I WILL NEVER LET YOU DOWN
Wake up, stand up
For everything you want
Let's go, let's live
What are your dreams, what do you wish?
It's up to you, so open up your eyes
And see, what could be
The world is there for us (for us)
Forever, we will be together
To love, for life
Let all go, let me lead
To be free
Let me be your eyes forever mine
Let me be your guide through this life
What is real, what is fake?
You'll never know for sure
All the pain, all the lies
I'll take them away from you
It's up to you, so open up your eyes
And see, what could be
The world is there for us (there for us)
Let me your eyes forever mine
Let me your guide through this life
I will never let you down (let you down)
Forever, we will be together
To love, for life
Let all go, let me lead
To be free

Black Horns.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.9:23 AM

SCENE EVOLUTION; I'M COMING BACK.

The scene, as some people would agree with me, have become so full of ridiculous wankers. The old scene seems so much better. The time where there was Shadows Embrace, Mulysa, Sounds Of Saviour and Obscure Phionix sharing the same stage. I miss it. So i'm doing something about that. I'm coming back to the scene hangouts to hand pick those who are still in love with the old scene and keep them from evolving into these x-core wankers who overdress, overact and overkill. Haha. STAY TRUE TO THE SCENE.

Jamming today was fun. Practising for the next up and coming gig which is Metal Allegiant. Coolness. Hahaha. Covering our favourites and our original play. So who's up for the Allegiance?

And again. I'll shall meet you ravers every saturday.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.5:58 PM

BEEN TOO LONG; NOTHING IN MIND.

For the past 2 weeks: i've been to my new camp, seen National Day Parade rehearsals twice with the same people, been nervous and much more.

My new camp's alright. Not that bad. Just hope that the upcoming I.V. session goes well.

I miss alot of people. Yes, i do. And for the past few weeks i've contemplated and went down and out because of this. But, i'll move on. No matter what happens.

I won't update much. Too all those peers who are worried or whatever. I'm fine. Nothing wrong. Doesn't hurt to call once in a while eh?

A PATTERN THROUGH DEPRESSION.

An onward route of depression,
Motionless on a road of despair,
I stand alone unwilling,
For the hatred that follows.
Goodbye is the word that revolves,
Around this world of mine,
One by one they left here,
None concerned or loved.
I keep memoirs of the lost,
Reminder that I'm all to be,
Unloved in the world of peers,
Because friends just disappear.
The black ring I wear around my neck,
Is not because I love someone,
But a remembrance of love's torment,
A straight-cut scar across the heart.
The black ring I wear on my finger,
Is not because I love someone,
But a memory of what's done,
A past of gray that's to be forgotten.
A pattern through depression,
I thank you all for this,
In this state shall I be set,
In concrete after my feelings are swept.

insanely yours,
Qhai.

GORE.8:25 AM